So, I’ve missed the last two soccer games my daughter has played these past two Saturdays. At the moment, I can’t even remember why I missed the September 17th game, but I missed the 24th because I was setting up for the VS Community Fest that I help out with every year for the past five years. It was a fun day, although it started out a little misty and cloudy, but once the weather passed, it was a perfect day.
But I missed another soccer game and I can’t keep doing this. I think the guilt is getting to me now because I know that I’m doing way too much these days. Whoever says things become easier the older your kids get is a liar.
Yeah, I said it.
It’s just the opposite. Now what this means, is that it’s time to fully (try to) surrender to being there 100% of the time for your kids even if you’re not in the mood. At some point, they won’t want you to be there, so for now it’s time to show up and be fully there.
I know, it’s a struggle for me because I am doing so many things that benefit my community, but honestly the family should always come first. I have to change my way of doing things and if it doesn’t fit around my family schedule or if it stresses me out and makes life hard in any way, I can’t do it.
I have been honored over the last few years here, and here for the things I do in the community and for that I am truly grateful. It’s good to be noticed, but I don’t do it to receive recognition. I do it because that’s just who I am. It’s who my husband is. It’s who we’re trying to encourage our children to be.
But it’s exhausting and I need a break.